Monthly Archives: March 2012

But I don’t WANNA !

Ok first I apologize for no update in the last two weeks. I know I said weekly updates but….. Give a guy a break I am not perfect you know. Close but not quite. Ok ok pick yourself up off the floor and stop laughing so you can read the rest of this. I was searching for a topic and this is a mix of two. First off the weather here in March has been amazing 60-70 degrees and sun has been out for days on end spoiling us. Compared to this time last year when I was still shoveling snow I will frigging take it. I have been locked up indoors riding a stationary bike going no where fast. I even convinced my training partner to sign up to an endurance spin class with me. To my surprise (she is going to hit me for this) She actually came to every class and did the whole thing. Not bad for someone that hates doing this group stuff indoors. Pretty happy she did actually.

With this weather we have pumped up the tires on our real bikes and finally managed to go out doors and start riding places so you feel like you are getting somewhere. I can’t begin to tell you how much better this feels to ride outside and see fields, barns, birds, ducks, and country side rather then hardwood floors and someone dripping sweat all around me. Wait that was my sweat puddle sorry. I can tell you the first few rides in the spring seem horrible even after doing a spin class. It was just back in the fall right before I put my bike away for the season I went out for a casual 70km bike ride like it was nothing. Last week 30km seemed to take forever to get through and it doesn’t help that spring is very windy here. We might not have hills in southern Ontario but we certainly have wind.

Today we had planed to go out and ride first thing in the morning. That was put on hold because it was cold and cloudy and wet outside. I was ok with that in a way, considering I was still sore from doing my track workout on Friday night. Who thought that was a good idea? (It will make you faster she says, This builds character, It’s good for us) What my training partner forgot to mention is it would hurt all weekend and I would walk no wait, Waddle like a penguin for the rest of the weekend. Well I ran out of excuses when the sun came out, the roads dried up, temperature went up and the wind picked up too. Something was telling me to stop making excuses and go ride. But I didn’t want to. Regardless I took my bike put on my helmet decided I would keep it in a low heart rate zone and ride for 90 mins. I went out into the country taking the wind almost head on and cussing every foul word you could think of. It was like a personal argument, half of me attempting to encourage myself and the other half of me dropping FBombs at myself. At my turn around point I got off to take care of some business (stupid wind made me pee on my hand, good thing I had water with me) But I snagged a great picture of my bike on a farm fence with a barn in the background. I spun around made my way home wind at my back, no longer swearing and actually singing. I can do this alone in the country no one out there realizes how bad my voice is, except for a few cows that run in the opposite direction. I got home and put on my running shoes right after and had a Great 4km run with Tina.

One thing that stands true every time even when I don’t Want to go run, ride, workout and I procrastinate. The days I suck it up and go, I feel so much better after. The days I give in to my PlayStation and sitting around, I feel guilty and tired and bored.

I am glad I sucked it up and went today.


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The Strength of a woman I hardly knew in person

A woman I know more through my wife than my own personal meetings with her, has succumb to her brain tumor and is no longer with us. I hardly knew her myself or at least I hardly knew her in person. My wife grew up with Erin and her family and knowing their family her whole life. Even after finishing college my wife ended up working for both her parents in their Doctor’s office where she is still employed today. She babysat most of their kids growing up, although more frequently Erin’s younger sister and brother.  Everything I know about Erin I know through her family and my wife.

About 5 years ago, Erin found out she had a brain tumor after a precautionary MRI was taken following a minor head injury from I believe a bull kicking her. You see she was a veterinarian. She had a passion for animals like no other person I know. She was brilliant young woman that didn’t let boundaries hold her back from doing things. I can’t go into details or I would be typing forever. Her siblings are the same way. A few years ago my wife was baby sitting Erin’s daughter and their dogs while they were off to a function and I was able to snap some pictures of her dogs and her daughter and frame them up to give to her. A pure privilege on my part. I never saw Erin that day, nor did I see her directly to give her the pictures. Yet I knew Erin and knew how great she was and all the things she was capable of. She must have appreciated the photos since I had to run off a second set for her parents.

When she found out about her brain tumor, she adjusted her diet, she challenged every physician to do surgery and she gathered information about her condition like it was just an extension of something she was supposed to do. She pushed on until she found someone who would do the surgery. She knew there was a good chance of having stroke because of this surgery. So she taught herself how to do things left handed including writing and doing sutures so she could still practice as a vet, if indeed she did have a stroke. Unfortunately she did have a stroke and the surgery was not completed the first time. She came though and pushed back and the second surgery was a success.

Then in the last year her tumor came back and grew. She challenged medicine and tried multiple options and continued to educate herself. I have never seen someone fight so much in the five-ish years this went on. My wife has witnessed this fight through the eyes of Erin’s parents on a daily basis at work. Erin’s parents are amazing people.  From the time I first met them, I could see where Erin’s  determination comes from.

Erin is leaving behind a 4 year old daughter, a husband, mother, father, sister, brothers and many friends and family. I only hope they can reflect on this time and realize how special, touching, motivated and strong she was and take some of that strength for themselves and remember these things as they look back on her life.

I hardly knew Erin, but I knew enough about her, to know that if I had half her determination, motivation, drive and passion I can be a successful person. Not many people come along like her. The sad part for me is this is a girl that I believe would have continued to contribute great things to our world. This loss isn’t just the family’s but also a loss for everyone who she would have touched in her life.

I am dedicating my training and my Half Ironman Race this year to Erin and my Father who I lost 8 years ago from Cancer. I will be wearing the “Hope for a Cure” Bracelet she gave me while training and racing this year.

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